oh hello. why yes, i am alive. though i doubt some would call it that. it seems one has come full circle. as i go into what is now my 4th year as a not-so-glorified practicing doctor, it seems the ever so dreaded physician's exams are looming around the corner. yup... it feels like med school all over again. but WORSE. studying to be a specialist is an even bigger mothership nightmare than studying to be a doctor. who would have thought? remember "back in the day" as a 4th year medical student, how i got all excited doing my first urinary catheter on a real patient? that's medical talk for inserting a long tube into someone's (typically male) bladder. i felt so doctor-y back then. like a real one. pfft, those days are LONG gone. when i became an intern (a real one), i quickly learnt to dread getting paged to do urinary catheters as they became one of the most annoying tasks to come with the job. and now that i'm a registrar (ie. more senior role), i have quickly learnt to toss these mundane chores to the new interns. they will then pass it on to the eager, bright-eyed medical students who will be waiting in line to do "real doctor-y things". ahh, the circle of life! the real world goes a little something like this: 
true story. and i wonder, what is it about october that keeps bringing me back? | 
