oh hello.

why yes, i am alive.

though i doubt some would call it that.

it seems one has come full circle.

as i go into what is now my 4th year as a not-so-glorified practicing doctor, it seems the ever so dreaded physician's exams are looming around the corner. 

yup... it feels like med school all over again. but WORSE.

studying to be a specialist is an even bigger mothership nightmare than studying to be a doctor.

who would have thought? 

remember "back in the day" as a 4th year medical student, how i got all excited doing my first urinary catheter on a real patient? 

that's medical talk for inserting a long tube into someone's (typically male) bladder.

i felt so doctor-y back then. like a real one.

pfft, those days are LONG gone. 

when i became an intern (a real one),  i quickly learnt to dread getting paged to do urinary catheters as they became one of the most annoying tasks to come with the job.

and now that i'm a registrar (ie. more senior role), i have quickly learnt to toss these mundane chores to the new interns.

they will then pass it on to the eager, bright-eyed medical students who will be waiting in line to do "real doctor-y things".

ahh, the circle of life!

the real world goes a little something like this:

true story.

and i wonder, what is it about october that keeps bringing me back?